Ravenous hunger with no appetite.

So, we made it through the holidays fairly unscathed!  I say fairly, because I am dumped at the other side with no energy, and a raging appetite.  Why?  I don't know.  Too many snacks I guess, not enough exercise, a period that always gets me these days ... and a houseful of people day, after day, after day!

Well, I have an empty house at last, and I am going through recipes, looking for a meal plan for the rest of the week.  Though it is Wednesday already, so I am halfway there!  I am trying to judge my cravings.  The past few days I haven't been able to get full.  I think this is because I have no true desire for a certain food, so I don't know what to eat, so I don't eat, and then I get RAVENOUS.  It's been kind of tough, because when I get so hungry I just NEED to eat.  I have also been fighting dehydration.  Yesterday I drank four full glasses of water before I had to pee.  And I still had a lingering headache.  I sweat so much when I do the bike (which is pretty much daily) and can't seem to get ahead of it.

Again, I don't seem to have any one food that I want.  I also seem to get super full really fast (this morning I ate a ton of cheese to get full.)  I know this isn't right, but I have no desire for eggs, there was nothing else in the fridge and the smoothie didn't even touch my hunger.  But the cheese and some chocolate afterward stuffed me to the gills.  But I can feel the hunger coming back.  It is so crazy!  Last night we went out to eat and I had a salad, which was delicious, and then I had a piece of salmon, a few bites of rice and I was STUFFED.  Weird.  I can't seem to get a handle on my appetite right now.  What do I want to eat?  Last night I thought I wanted a flatbread pizza, the description sounded so yummy.  But I figured since Charlie and Peter were both ordering it, I could have a bite.  Thank heavens I didn't order it -- didn't taste good to me at all.  I wish there was a pill I could pop that would take care of my dietary needs and be done with it.  No, seriously.

So I have been going through recipes and pictures of food all morning and nothing is jumping out at me.  Nothing.  What is going on???

I am thinking I need to do a juice fast or something.  Did I mention this already?  I think that is what I need to do.

2012

Ahhh, 2012.  First day of the new year, and I am somewhat relieved to have made it through the holidays without an enormous weight gain!  I did not eat wheat, however, like this morning, I was dying for bread.  Fortunately I have a stash of gluten free bagels in the freezer, so I had one of those.  They are okay, not exactly the same thing as the "real" thing, but enough to help out in a pinch.  I woke up to the smell of cinamon buns in the oven, just an overwhelming aroma that made me want to kill for one.  So I think turning to a cardboard-tasting bagel was pretty darn impressive!

Food choices are getting harder because I don't seem to have specific cravings.  When I wanted eggs, that was easy, because they are easy to make.  Same with meat.  But suddenly I have zero cravings and an empty stomach.  What to eat?  I don't know!  So I think that it is time to clean up and out for a few weeks, so perhaps I will do just raw.  But easy raw -- not all those hard to prepare meals -- something easy to follow that fills me up without a lot of thought.

AND NO MORE DRINKING!

Such empty calories, and I don't even crave that either!  It's not like Oh!  I would love a glass of wine pops into my head.  Nope, it's more, okay, having people over, or going out, will probably have a drink.  End of that for a bit.  Time to clean out!  I don't feel toxic by any means, just a little heavy.  That of course has a lot to do with my period -- but it's always a good time to go for light.  Bye bye bloating, cramps, etc. because a new day is dawning.

And no resolutions, because why?  I am on this path and still skipping down it willfully.  I don't need any further proof to know if it is the right thing.  It is.

Haven't been on the bike for a few days either.  Must get back into a healthful routine (and believe me, I'm not that far from it).  Just got overtired from holidays, travel and ho ho ho, and need to get my mojo back.  It's there, not far -- I can feel it!

So where will the new year take us in terms of weight?  Can't weight to find out!!!!